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I feel so fortunate in my life today.  When I started my abstinence I was a 100 pounds heavier, I felt like an old woman, very depressed, no hope in my eyes, isolated from everyone, my health deteriorating very fast and only death before me  All this after a lifetime of me knowing best.  I knew more than doctors, nutritionists or anyone else working on food issues.

I compulsively tried different things that surely were going to be the thing for me.  All the new different diets, fasts, suppliments.  If something new came along anywhere in the world I would try it and know about it and nothing ever worked.  Never ever until I was lead into Greysheet.

For 32 years of my life I desperately searched the world for a cure for what was wrong with me.  I had been told that if I worked hard enough at something I would succeed so I put all my strength and energy into this.  When I finally crawled into the rooms of Greysheet I was a broken person in body and soul, this was surely the last house on the block for me.  And just before dawn is the darkest was totally true for me.  I just wanted to die.  I was lead into these rooms, I was taken by the hand and told what to do, I was loved, nourished and healed physically long enough for me to realize that I was really a very spiritually ill person and then I was lead into the 12 steps an incredible journey inward.  I was connected to my higher power again.  I was like reborn.  Everything was new in my life.  I was like a baby learning to walk again, in all my affairs.  Learning that I'm not the conductor in my life today.

So I do my chores every day and then leave the rest to my higher power which I call God.

My chores are so easy compared to all my efforts before and I do them so gladly.  I feel I rest on a strong foundation, I'm held and loved, I'm not alone.

As long as I do what is mine to do I feel soooo good.  Which is first of all to weigh and measure my wonderful food three times a day, I write it down and send it to my sponsor one day at a time no matter what happens in my life.  I eat nothing between meals and abstinence is my no. one priority in my life today.  Other things are working my 12 steps and applying them into every area of my life.  I pray, read, attend meetings, call my sponsor, call and connect to other GSers.

When I look at my self in the mirror today, I see a beautiful woman with light in her eyes, youthful appearance (just turned 50) full of energy and with life wide open in front of her.  My whole life has changed for the better in every way, all relationships with family and friends have changed for the better and my healing has touched my whole family.  I have a wonderful husband that stands by me and loves me, a little puppy that is incredibly wonderful.  All my children are doing very well and I have three wonderful grandaughters, my parents are alive and doing fine and I've moved into my dreamhouse.  I changed my career totally and am looking so forward to what is ahead for me in my life.  I would never have believed all this could happen for me.  But it has.  All because of you.  Am I greatful?  yes I am!

By Anonymous, Iceland