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Hi [Anonymous] here.  I am a complusive overeater.  I weigh and measure three meals a day from the greysheet.  I write those meals down and call them into my sponsor.  I eat nothing in between meals except coffee, tea and diet soda.  Abstinence and God are the most important things in my life today, because they give me a real life.

I am the mother of nine children and just for today I do not think of their food as my food.  I can cook it, touch it and serve it and it does not have power over me, because just for today I do not even consider it mine.  That ,for me, is a miracle of this program.

Just for today I can feel uncertainty and not want to stuff those feelings with my entire fridge.  That is another miracle of this program.

Just for today I can be angry and hurt and not need to drug myself with food.  I was never angry and hurt without using my drug of choice.  So I was angry and hurt a lot when I was in the food.  That is another miracle of this program to not stuff those feelings with food and I am not nearly angry or hurt as much..  hmmm

Just for today no matter what is going on I eat my meals every single bite and make them as delicious a possible.  My wonderful greysheet food is my medicine to keep me out of a world full of obsession, self hate and certain physical and spiritual death.

Just for today I ask my HP to take everything beyond my control and miraculously my life becomes simpler than I had a clue it could be.

Just for today I can truly say that I am so grateful to all of you for showing me the way on this road.  I am grateful that each of us do this together, and I am grateful that it is a program of progress not perfection.

In Fellowship
and
Love
Anonymous
In MT
June 2005