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Hello everyone.  I'm [Anonymous], a compulsive overeater.  I w&m three meals a day off the GS, write them down, call them into my sponsor and don't eat in between no matter what and abstinence is the most important thing in my life.

Today is day 319.  God willing in another 46 days I will have a year of back to back abstinence.  I am nervous.  The food is calling to me.  I'm stressed out over money, the holidays, missing my mother, etc.  When I was thinking about all of these things, I remembered one day at a time.  I also thought:

I need to remember where I came from:

1. 260lbs and moving upward
2. size 24 that was tight
3. feeling dumpy and unattractive
4. only focusing on my face in the mirror because I couldn't face looking at the rest of me
5. bleeding, red inner thighs from hosiery
6. using zinc oxide to heal the redness on my inner thighs and under flap of fat that was my lower abdomen
7. the compulsive overeating (at work, making dinner) and now realizing (through GS) that I was feeding my feelings, stresses, lonliness, etc.
8. buying black (coat, pants, sweaters, etc.) to make me look thinner
9. hiding wrappers in diapers so my family wouldn't know that I had eaten too many snacks
10. losing weight would solve all of my problems (If only I were thin, X would be different, or X would change.)

I need to remember what I'm grateful for:

1. GS (105 lbs lighter)
2. having delicious GS food 3x/day
3. my health
4. my kids
5. my family (by blood and GS)
6. my friends
7. sunrises/sunsets
8. having a roof over my head
9. my five senses
10. the ability to hug and play with my kids

In my new body, I need to remember:

• progress not perfection
• picking up will not solve my problems or make me feel better
• where I came from
• what I'm grateful for
• the GS tools outreach calls, Greynet, the Big Book to help me stay abstinent.

Thanks for listening.

A&G
Anonymous